Yea, soo I guess I just stop thinking...about you.

I write a lot of things down in this box - with the full intent of publishing it.

Most of it gets saved into a draft though, because I don't really want the whole world reading my deepest thoughts, and cares, and hopes, and loves.

Because diary blogs are overrated anyways.

But then, it ends up that I don't post a lot anymore.
Because anything I write ends up being closer to the diary entry prototype rather than just the everyday blog one.
However, the drafts generally get translated, by me, into a sentence - which I end up using to title these mundane blog posts such as celui-ci (this one).

Whatever, I guess we'll just chalk to up to "teenage angst".

K

Short, short, short.

I got my hair cut yesterday.
It's short.
...probably shorter than I wanted it.
It still looks great, but we just have to take some time getting to know each other (me and my hair that is)

K

I'm come to terms with it.

Finished my last day of classes today.
I have one more exam. Not until the 21st. Psych. Some say it sucks that I'm not done till then, but look at the bright side, at least I have time to study.

When I'm not studying however I will be going to christmas parties!!
I think I'm up to 5 now. 5 holiday parties. Wow, I'm popular!

K

I don't know.

Yea. I don't know.
They say distance makes the heart grow fonder.
But is it just an illusion of heightened fondness?

Because sometimes it's easier during the moments before you find out what the real picture looks like.
Like right before you find out if you got a part in the school play. Or the moment before you find out if you aced the midterm or not.

Or I guess before you find out if he has an inkling of fondness towards you as well.

Maybe not knowing is better.
Maybe the illusion of fondness is better than the crashing reality of lack there of.

Maybe imagining having the lead, or acing the test is better than actually knowing.

Am I convincing you?
Yea didn't think so.
Haven't convinced myself either.
In then end, you still just want to know.

K

It's December

I woke up this morning with very much reluctance, forcing my eyes to stay open trying realize that the dream world I just left is, in fact, not part of reality.

I went about my normal routine, took a long hot shower, and afterward made my way down to the empty kitchen to make myself some breakfast.

My mother put some Christmas lights up on our deck this past week, and seeing that I get up at an hour where the world is still dark outside, I flicked on the switch, and turned on the glorious lights.

Only when I turned on these lights did I realize that it was snowing. And not only that, but it was snowing my favourite kind of snow. Big clumps of snowflakes falling slowly to the ground.

I stopped by the door that goes out to the walk-out deck in my backyard and just watched it fall for a few minutes.

Needless to say, it made me feel just a little less sleepy, and might have put a tiny grin on my face.

K

Christmas season is here. There's no doubt about it.

Don't worry,

Lately my posts have been kind of down.
But I just thought I'd let y'all know that I'm doing well.

I've got some cool things going for me.
Life is exciting.

Sometimes everyone needs a crying day though.
K

Maybe if I wait here long enough, you'll say hi.

To me.

K